After the slide show, one of the older kids grabbed one of S's earbuds to listen in on his music. He threw a FIT, slinging the earbuds around at the other child. This was the result of them making contact with the concrete:
It was a Saturday, and Almaz and the other office workers were off for the day. The atmosphere around HH was significantly more relaxed than usual, and we spent a lot of time goofing off with the older kids and interacting with some of the babies. There were several tubs full of soapy water, and everything was getting washed: toys, rugs, furniture, shoes, you name it. Yikealo pitched in to "help" and soon, he was instigating water fights and other forms of pure orneriness. Thankfully, the special mothers took it all in stride and just laughed at his antics.
We knew that our time was coming to an end, so while Wass kept Yikealo and the others occupied with a few games of Uno...
I got a little bit teary when we finally put him down, but then his special mothers hugged me goodbye, and I completely lost it. I had grown to really love these sweet women in just 4 short days, and I knew that they would adore my son for me over the next several weeks. We walked out of the gates feeling a painful heaviness at the thought of leaving him, but also feeling a great thankfulness for the knowledge that he would be loved and cared for. I also had to think of S's birth mom. Sure, it was hard for us to leave him, but we would hopefully be returning soon to bring him home. She is losing her little boy forever. My sorrow is nothing compared to hers.
My Jesus also comforted me with the thought that this loneliness is what He feels for me, His bride. He did the same for us...came to our world for a time, and then left us momentarily behind while He went to prepare our future home. He longs for us as I long for my little boy....although His love is much deeper and purer than mine will ever be. I'm so thankful that I serve a God who "gets" my hard places...the moments when life is painful and dark for a time. He's experienced it all, He understands how I'm feeling, and I can completely trust Him with the details of planning my life.